pablo.

reminiscing on many things.

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking. dreaming.

I’ve woken up recently with some of the most vivid dreams of recent memory. I’ve never been super convinced that dreams mean anything and I still don’t know now. superheroes, gentrified aesthetic seafood restaurants, cartoon rivers. I’m really learning to lean into actions, but dreams are something that continue to amaze me. things that I could never consciously conceptualize. partially why I think that Inception is one of the best films of all time.

which / one

re-visiting The Life of Pablo, it’s still some of my favorite of Kanye’s work. listening to ‘30 Hours’ I write this.

there’s some themes in here that I am coming to see for the first time. music is so crazy how it does that. so many layers, I hear something new every time I spin a song.

reading every day. a little. making this a habit.

getting caught up in TV has been fun and cool, but it’s not getting me here. I still have so much more learning and doing and failing and growing and everything. it’s way too easy to ignore this because there’s a bit of pain there. I’m so far from where I want to be. so far that I can’t see the horizon. I have no idea where it ends. perhaps it doesn’t. maybe it does. maybe that end is when I reach the end of my life. constantly learning, re-orienting, messing up, trying, everything. regardless, I have to go in one direction. and move my feet. I’m eager.

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if you’re reading this, you know exactly what you need to do at this very moment. don’t wait.

take care,

Juan